I was just reading one of my colleague’s blog… posts that she wrote around her wedding (before and after)… and it woke the ‘emotional Leo’ up! Looking back at the last 3 and a half years of married life… it’s such a mixed feeling…

Life changes…and how! Beofre I got married…I heard people say – marriage changes your life… I completely agree! But what I don’t agree with is the look they had on their face whike saying this… I had always believed that marriage is gonna be the best thing that will ever happen to me…and oh boy, was I right! I remember how everyone around me was shocked when I told them that I am getting married (yes, I got married realllyyyy early in life)… it was so unlike me… but the fact of the matter is that people never knew me… they still don’t! Sometimes I wonder if anyone has ever known me…I guess not! And the truth is that till one particular stage in life, I didn’t reveal my true identity to even my own self… and one day the curtains raised and I was shocked…rather surprised…You don’t know your strengths till they are tested…. you don’t know your weaknesses till you face them… you don’t know yourself till you confront!

Its strange…how you can comepletely alienate yourself from the world sometimes. Everyone seems a stranger… everything seems irrelevant. Only memories rule!

Oh man, I am so waiting for my December vacation… I promise myself to relive those moments in this vacation…all of them

I guess I’ll not…doesn’t make sense…

Guess I’ll just start blabbering… hmm.. so where do I start? Ok..first lets see where did I stop… I stopped at swine flu. Well - god’s grace - no one I know has been affected by swine flu

Oh, btw, I got a new job. Gosh, it’s been more than a month since I joined… tme flies…doesn’t it?!  And so far I’m loving..interesting work, and more interestingly, I get a lot of opportunities to tax my brains…the first prerequisite for a good job according to me!

Next, I read some books during this period – last 2 being P.S. I Love You and Rich Dad Poor Dad. Completely loved both of them. Ok, let me confess… P.S. I Love has been the first book ever that got tears in my eyes. Amazing book!

Coming to Rich Dad Poor Dad, it teached you how to get rich. Well, I won’t say it changed my perception about money and finances and savings… but it definitely was reassuring. And Sam also read it, and loved it too. One good thing here is that now (I hope) he won’t be upset when I take some risks in stock market

Ok, what next? I have been going through an emotional turmoil in one aspect of life. I can’t discuss the detials here but honestly, I never thought that this is something that will trouble me. Its amazing… if you look back, life will always throw all those things on you which you thought can never be a part of your story. That’s life. And as usual (like all other crucial times), I have decided to give it one-last-full-blodded-try and I’ll give up after that and take some real action. I know all this might be sounding very vague, so lets skip it and move on to the next thing.

And what is the next thing? Mmmmm… actually a lot of things in my head to write down… but less time.. so let me get back to work for now…I’ll be back and regular this time

Yes it is – especially the speed with which it is spreading. To the extent that today when my maid had cold and was complaining of body ache as well… I got scared! It might sound funny, but yes, I was thinking on those lines. Does she have swine flu – was the first thought! I hope not!

Ever since I read a post on Amrit’s blog about belief in God, I’ve been thinking which category will I fall in – atheist, thiest, agnostic gnostic???

I always thought and said that I am agnostic… but come to think of it, agnostics are those who are not sure whether they believe in God’s existence… but I am not that… I have full faith in God…but that doesn’t make me theist because I am not religious… I don’t believe in temples and pujas and rituals. So where do I fall?

I did some googling and found out that I fall in the category of ‘Agnostic Theism’, which is also known as ‘Spiritual Agnosticism’…I like that That’s just what I am…Phew! Some relief there!

Came across this interesting site today… Looks like paper business cards will be a thing of past very soon wth these virtual business cards. And, of course, paper business cards don’t let you share yur social media contact details.. whereas with card.ly you can do that… And as we all know, today, facebooks and twitters of the world are more important (and effective) than emil to stay in touch!

No…this is not a word I invented… this is one of the many blogging platforms I came across today and I quite liked it. Its simple in the true sense of the word… just send an email to post your thoughts… I know this is not the first time any site is doing it… but they’ve made it look much simpler than anyone else. Even when you go to the website… its as simple as it could get and hence very very user-friendly… you feel so much at ease using it… it took me hardly few seconds to try posting something

And I think its a very good medium for family/group blogs… so you can attach multiple email ids to one blg and password-protect it, in case you want it to remain visible only to your group. And then anyone in that group can post stuff by emailing to one common id.

Another interesting thing – you can update all your other social networks like facebook and twitter by just this one post… good stuff! I am quite impressed. Here is the link – www.posterous.com – in case you guys wanna explore!

P.S. – A disclaimer – I think I am getting extremely interested in ’social media’ these days… so might see more of such posts more often here

There are some people in our lives who are never away…. you may meet or even talk to them after months or years…but it feels the same… as if you partied together just yesterday! Similarly, there are such places…you might visit them after years…but everything feels just the same!

And that’s what I feel for my blog right now. I know I’ve been away for quite sometime but it feels no different. I still feel the same connect with all my friends here

Well… to be very honest, I have no reason for being away…in fact, I had been free all this while…but just didn’t feel like writing anything! So updates first… I quit my job, went to Delhi for sometime where my Mom had a spine surgery, came back to Bangalore, job hunting, a trip to Chikmaglur, on the verge of getting a job, waiting for my b’day!

Mom had a spine surgery in late June… it was one of the toughest times of my life… mentally! The moment she came back from the OT in the room… that was the scariest sight…. it shook me… I was numb…I couldn’t move…I couldn’t speak for a few seconds…I wonder if I was even breathing or not… and 30 seconds later, the nurse tells me that I’ve to help her in shifting Mom from one bed to another…and I regained consciousness…and helped her….

Not that I have never seen anyone in that condition before that…I’ve seen people in situations much worse than that…but never my Mother….the lady who is epitome of strength for me…was lying there…half conscious – unable to move, unable to breath without an  oxygen mask, unable to speak… she had to make effort to even keep her eyes open for sometime… She has been my strength always… how could I be strong with her in this condition… but then I thought…now is my turn..to be her strength…and never did any sight or anything frighten me again! And I’m glad how I handled myself and everything else while I was there… I think I can be proud of myself for that!

And the best compliment – Mom one day said – “And I always thought you were fragile!”

… and I shall be back very soon!!!

Read these beautiful lines today…

The night has a thousand eyes, the day but one;

Yet the light of the bright world dies, with the dying sun.

The mind has a thousand eyes, the heart but one’

Yet the light of the whole life dies, when love is done.

- Francis W. Bourdillon