For the nth time in my life I am wondering why do I have these mood swings… and such drastic ones?! One moment I’ll just be fine and the next moment I’m deep down…and how I hate it! I hate it because when I’m down I expect people to bear with me and take all my shit, and I dive even deeper if they don’t! And such moments make me realize how dependent I have been all my life..on someone or the other… damn! I don’t believe this…and I thought I am ‘Independent’!
Just read my last post again… and I hated the last two line… ‘I need to be found, by you.’ Why you? Why not me? I didn’t change the lines because that won’t help. Because that’s what I thought at that point. I need to find myself… but do I want to find myself?
Because I know the result and I don’t want it!